i am having mon blues... oh noes~ dunno y but suddenly very turned off by work. i guess cos new JD, new responsibilities and i still trying hard to cope with all the expectations? its like suddenly kana thrown into the sea and i struggling to stay afloat. erm... actually not tt bad lah... how about its like suddenly kana trapped on the last piece of ice on the antartic and trying hard not to get drowned? sounds better? LOL
how time flies... cant believe i have been in this unit for 3yrs 7mths liao. piang... someone pls pop the champagne! hahaha... everyday say i wanna go... LL still stuck in this place. malu sia LOL i use to think i shd go out n see the world; shouldnt stuck at my 2nd job for so long. 毕竟 this place dun really have a career ladder. plus i wish to go back to the lab (always think tt i belong there); dun wish to stick to this field; want to earn more $$$ yada yada. but sometimes i think hard, actually this place also not tt bad. political lah, but bearable... den again which place is not political? plus i can work well with some of my colleagues. den sometimes i also v eng... can walk ard and chitchat with pple; unofficial lunch time 2 hrs =x; can come and go as i like... no one actually cares (i hope my md doesnt sees this!). money and career wise 知足长乐 lor. plus i get to see my 宝贝 everyday. maybe abit 窝囊 lah... but at least i still holding a managerial post. aiyah... conclusion of this 烂 post is pull factors still outweighs push factors. maybe shd just hang around and see how things go on from here.
aiyah... dun wanna think liao... think liao headache. like i always say... everything is fated. let heaven decide for me bah! =D
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
i got my arse poked today!!! keke... 变态 ... how come i sounded so high :P oh... cos i still on sedation mah... hahaha... so please pardon this 'high' blog k? LOL
wat an experience it was lor. i mean choy la... once is enuf, but still it was quite 大开眼界 for me. i was asked to strip naked and wear the patient gown. quite dumb lor cos i felt so barren n tbh, the gown looks super girly :p den i was lead to the suite where the nurses prep me for the scope. first they lied me down on my side, positioned my arse swee swee so they can poke me later LOL den they gave me oxygen tubing, bp cuffs and finger probe to monitor my bp and ppO2. i guessed my bp must have rocketed sky high during the entire process LOL next they cannulated me lor... not once but twice. sob sob... dr n missy say my veins v fine... they tried the upper side of the palm den failed so hamtum the side of my wrist. so farnie... the dr kept apologizing but really not pain la... or rather my skin too thick :p nx the missy asked me to bite onto some round thingy... den i totally concussed.
i guess the gastroscope must have been painful cos i remembered struggling during the process. i think the pain was so bad i somehow 'woke' up. but den i concussed again. den half way during the colonoscopy, i woke up again! this time more alert... i even turned to view the screen and saw my colon!!! keke... eh, divert abit ... i really think the poking of arse is a v shiok sensation ;) no wonder brokeback so famous lately :p sickening LOL
i was wheeled to the recovery area after the entire procedure to let the sedation wear off. i vividly remembered myself calling out her name (so 不孝 hor... nv think of my folks =/). wonder if the nurses heard it LOL but she also v cute... sneak in to find me only to get chased out by the missy. hohoho~
the after effect of the scope was quite bad. i'm still having sore throat. stomach better after a few hrs but the early hrs was bad. the sharp pain was unbearable. v v pain... v v sharp. can die ah. but everything ended well... at least i noe i got a GIT in good working condition ;)
wat an experience it was lor. i mean choy la... once is enuf, but still it was quite 大开眼界 for me. i was asked to strip naked and wear the patient gown. quite dumb lor cos i felt so barren n tbh, the gown looks super girly :p den i was lead to the suite where the nurses prep me for the scope. first they lied me down on my side, positioned my arse swee swee so they can poke me later LOL den they gave me oxygen tubing, bp cuffs and finger probe to monitor my bp and ppO2. i guessed my bp must have rocketed sky high during the entire process LOL next they cannulated me lor... not once but twice. sob sob... dr n missy say my veins v fine... they tried the upper side of the palm den failed so hamtum the side of my wrist. so farnie... the dr kept apologizing but really not pain la... or rather my skin too thick :p nx the missy asked me to bite onto some round thingy... den i totally concussed.
i guess the gastroscope must have been painful cos i remembered struggling during the process. i think the pain was so bad i somehow 'woke' up. but den i concussed again. den half way during the colonoscopy, i woke up again! this time more alert... i even turned to view the screen and saw my colon!!! keke... eh, divert abit ... i really think the poking of arse is a v shiok sensation ;) no wonder brokeback so famous lately :p sickening LOL
i was wheeled to the recovery area after the entire procedure to let the sedation wear off. i vividly remembered myself calling out her name (so 不孝 hor... nv think of my folks =/). wonder if the nurses heard it LOL but she also v cute... sneak in to find me only to get chased out by the missy. hohoho~
the after effect of the scope was quite bad. i'm still having sore throat. stomach better after a few hrs but the early hrs was bad. the sharp pain was unbearable. v v pain... v v sharp. can die ah. but everything ended well... at least i noe i got a GIT in good working condition ;)
Friday, April 10, 2009
haven really blog for a long time. i'm still alive and kicking... life still goes on ... the world still rotate at its axis. muarhahaha~ lame! everything is going well ... minus the god damn thesis and the beep endoscopy.
my prof is not getting back to me on my thesis. irritating! understand she's bz ... but cant she just finish my thingy and let me grad first?! drag for so many years liao, i'm losing enthusiasm to take phd.
i'm going for a double scope on mon. yes... finally getting that stupid GIT treated. think i'm pretty sick of LS-ing every alternate day =/ and since co is paying... better to get myself treated. even if CA also good to find out earlier =X haiz... tts life...
on a happy note, i got promoted BUT no pay increment yet. oh well... not such a joyous event afterall rite? hahaha... human... so hard to please LOL
my prof is not getting back to me on my thesis. irritating! understand she's bz ... but cant she just finish my thingy and let me grad first?! drag for so many years liao, i'm losing enthusiasm to take phd.
i'm going for a double scope on mon. yes... finally getting that stupid GIT treated. think i'm pretty sick of LS-ing every alternate day =/ and since co is paying... better to get myself treated. even if CA also good to find out earlier =X haiz... tts life...
on a happy note, i got promoted BUT no pay increment yet. oh well... not such a joyous event afterall rite? hahaha... human... so hard to please LOL