haben blogged for more than a mth... holy cow~ wat have i been doing? feeling tired rite now... physically, mentally, psychologically, physiologically, spiritually yada yada.... simply T.I.R.E.D. pls pardon my nonsensical and unorganized rants bcos i can no longer think properly after staring at the comp since 8am till 9pm.
am going outstation to brussels n uk soon. perhaps thats one main reason y i'm feeling sian. dread going to ang mo places. not going to make any racist comments in here. am counting down the days and feeling stress over the trip. its the same feeling as going guilin last yr... hate to be in a foreign land and missing some one back at home. can u understand how it feels? n partly due to the language barrier n my antisocial-ness. really dunno how to communicate with people. perhaps i'm better off in the lab alone LOL
wiseman lee is getting grouchier lately. wonder wats wrong with him. maybe menopause bah. dun laugh k... men also menopause lor. he commented tt i have prob staying focus. indeed! but in this era, its so hard to focus on something mah... esp so when u have to multitask all the time. ok, lame. i realise my attention span for things getting shorter. n i get restless v easily. do i have hyper-thyroidism? no leh... i dun shout like certain person in my workplace... n worse of all, i have been putting on weight. hypo-thyroidism more like it LOL
i realise i'm getting autistic. i got problem speaking properly as i grow older. my gal complains tt i have slurred speech; i got problem communicating with my kolics; i tok lesser when i'm at home; i speak more to my teddy bear. sometimes i will just get lost in conversations. my ears auto shut off when someone toks to me... n when that person finished toking, i will scratch my head and try to recall what she said earlier. its bad... getting worse... but it really doesnt bother me... i'm happy living in my own world.
i'm getting poorer... dunno y but i keep feeling $ not enuf. i mean $ is nv enuf lah... but my heart will bleed when $ is spent... even very small sums. n i can literally feel the pain... throbbing pain to be exact. when i look at LV, Gucci, Versace etc, i will often lament y am i not born with a silver spoon in my mouth. no need silver lah... stainless steel also will do LOL but den when i see people digging for food in the rubbish bin, i will somehow feel v relieve tt i hv a roof over my head n i have $ to eat until so fat.
work is turning into a warzone. everyday i don bulletproof vest to work and every min i try to siam arrows... u noe like how neo siam bullets in the matrix LMFAO~ i already tried my best to lie low but dunno y the arrows keep coming. think cos my surface area too big liao hahaha... over-exposed!!! we got a new OD! overly frenly... scare she laugh inside hide knife. v sad rite? nowadays there is no1 i can trust in workplace. tsk tsk.
i hate my prof. i really do. she is such a bitch. now i understand y undergrads stab profs.
ok, time to go... dearie calling me~ she's all i have rite now~
