the fudging emo-ness is not getting better... bdae celebrations ongoing almost everynite this week... but when i'm alone, the emo-ness comes back. i really dunno wats wrong with me. seriously... i tot i needed a good cry, so i went to watch 12 lotus with jc. i did cried la... wats new? always cry when i watch royston tan's movie. erm divert abit...

the movie i felt was not as good as 881. the storyline still revolves around getai and but this time, it has a new theme - the 12 lotus song. it talks about this gal called lian hua... and the 12 phases of her life (erm... pardon my stupidity but i cant differentiate the 12 phases leh). but must say the story quite sad. she got abused by her father since young, cheated of her feelings by a scum, got gang raped and eventually went bonks. see liao heartache lor. she got haunted by the gang-raping so much she wakes up in the middle of the nite everynite for 20years, thinking that the baddies are outside her house waiting to pounce on her. and when she got a little bit better, she got cheated a second time. boo hoo~ and the hokkien lyrics... sibey touching... just made me cry lor. sianz... thank god no1 saw it LOL

sigh... see liao lagi emo... everyone say its really up to me to change my mindset... i noe ah... but v hard wat. sianz... think i better go to sleep... can chase the emo-ness away for a while. haiz...