i have been going out almost every day the past few weeks... reaching home past midnite. and den cont sms-ing her till ard 2ish or till i zonk out on the bed. i will wake up at 5ish in the morning with a heavy feeling in the heart and not get back to sleep again. den i'll go to work super lack of sleep and the whole cycle continues... its crazy and i din noe how i survived those days.

i woke up early this morning with a heavy heart again... even thou i broke the news to her last nite, i think things remain more or less still the same. the sms-ing continues... at least for today. i felt so tired the entire day... i had a long sleep in the late evening... however i'm still feeling tired now.

i'm wondering how i should react when i see her tomorrow. will be kinda awkward... afterall i have an extremely thin skin and huge ego. and tomorrow will also be the first day i learn to live life in the unit without LD. seriously think i am in bad shape now. bad-timing perhaps but at least like wat rach said... better ask den live with regrets. farnie thingy is i dun have the same feelings like i had on 01/01/2006. i'm surprised.