i am feeling moody. dun ask me y. it may be due to the crappy weather, mental n physical fatigue, my da yi ma coming etc etc i myself dun have the ans. at this moment i just feel so nua... dun wish to do anything, see anything or hear anything. i slept very early these few days... but the extra hours went to dreaming. i had so many dreams... so many i can hardly recall any. they vary in scenario... some sweet, some nitemarish, some pure waste of time. oh oh... 1 waste of $$$.

work's getting heavier... n i felt so god damn exploited. dad is right... wats the point of getting promoted without pay increment? that's pure exploitation. my boss enjoys dropping me bomb every morning... looking on the bright side, all these are good learning opportunities. looking on the opposite side, this is shit. in order not to make myself feel idiotic and shitty, i'm with the plus side! i enjoy leading. i'm born to lead ... lead pple i like. u noe wats my worst kept secret at present? i hate my subordinates... yes... both of them. yet i have to smile and act friendly in front of them. it sux. i'm not sure whether its pure age gap, difference in character or their working attitude simply cmi. i pray i will not work like them when i reach their age. can some other co pls lure either both of them or only me away? gum sia.

all other aspects of my life remained more or less the same. i like routine. but somehow i stopped and wonder if its getting too mundane for me. i need a new challenge. or do i? i lost something... i cant exactly pinpoint what it is. have i lost it or did it left me? i'm reaching 30 next year. wow... i've lived on this earth for that long! isnt it a wonder? plain leeching of the earth's precious resources without contributing back to her. wat a shame. i think i'm delirious. i better stop blogging before i spread to any of you.