had a good tok with LD just now... was totally surprised by how positive i am lately. many things have happened to me this year... fairshare of good and bad ones i think. there are some that made me feel bitter and disappointed; there are some that left v good memories behind; there are also some that changed my perspective of life.

i have seen alot in my current workplace. been thru alot as well. i thank god for bringing me away from c*h to this place. i have learnt alot and matured thruout my 2 years stay here. but there are times when i felt shortchanged by this company cos i do alot of things, hold alot of responsibilies and yet my pay is not justified... way way below market rate. so i had a good tok with lee and ah hock yesterday. i digested every single word lee said... i suddenly see alot of things...

i started out lowly as a PA, den up to RC and den to SC. i have learnt so much things along the way... an experience i dare say no 1 in p*izer had before (except maybe my director). i love the satisfaction i get whenever i close a protocol. i love the satisfaction i get when my fellow colleagues overseas praise me for a job well done. i love the respect and recognition given to me from the nursing team. i love coming to work each day and going home fruitful. i learn new things everyday and i am happy. i love my colleagues, i look forward to lunching with them and walking with them to take the mrt home after work. i love the support they gave me at work. wat more can i ask for? all these experiences and feelings of satisfaction are what money cant buy.

lee said its good to be v bz when young. i agree. he told me my director did much more den me when she was younger. i agree. he told me i have the potential. i agree. he told me with experience comes the money. i agree. besides monetary gains, i have gained thru other aspects... psychologically, spiritually and emotionally. furthermore i have a direction in life rite now... for once after being a human for 27 years. and i look forward to my goal.

sometimes you just gotta be positive in life to get you going. someone once told me... 'happy also pass 1 day, not happy also pass 1 day... y dun u pass the day happily?' simple sentence yet made alot of sense. and if my happiness can bring happiness to others, y not? i wan to lead a meaningful life... i wan to work while i still can work. i wan to stay not only physically but also mentally, psychologically, emotionally healthy. i will learn to love myself so that i will not disappoint pple who loves me - my parents, my family and my frens.

i remembered dad reprimanding me for falling down last wed. i told him... its common to fall down in life... wats more important is whether you can pick urself up or not. i think he was quite stunned by wat i said. *keke* so in conclusion... my aim now is to stay positive in life...work towards my goal and to live life to the fullest!

mr lee... thanks again for the enlightenment!