felt a strong urge to blog tonite even thou there's alot of work waiting to be done. LD n me confessed our sexuality to 2 of my colleagues today. both of them were kinda shocked by LD but they were quite calm about me. aiyah... think pretty obvious lah. but they had a rude shock too when they learnt tt my target is that inert little girl. JL even asked me to drop it =_( i think they dun understand y i like tt little gal...sometimes, even i myself dun noe which part of her i am attracted to. she's not v chio, but got good dress sense. she's not v smart, but she's v sweet and thoughtful. she's not v tactful but her 'stupidity' nv fails to cheer me up.
was quite sad when JL and PB both thinks we are not quite possible. but the thing tt saddens me was tt i learnt that i have been outted by a fren. my colleague PB's close fren is one of my closer fren, PY's best fren. PB told me she was not shocked to noe my sexuality bcos her close fren told her before. and how does her good fren who has nv seen me noes? must be ms PY who told her lah! at that moment, i felt so betrayed. v disappointed and bitter bcos the woman whom i once fallen in love with went around telling strangers my sexuality. its like tarnishing my reputation outside! at first i just ignored but on my way home...the more i tot of it, the more pissed off i was. it was until a point i was so determined nv to befren this woman again. i am feeling better now but still need some time to cool off.
and now i am starting to think about wat happened over dinner tonite. LD told me its sinful to lure someone into an alternative relationship! excuse me... since when have i lured tt little gal or anyone into a relationship?! i am the most gentlemen on planet earth okay! who was the one who asked me to take advantage of situation to kiss that little gal when playing truth or dare on sat nite?! who was the one who helped me 'flirted' with that little gal via sms during the congress yesterday?! holy cow! now she turned around and accuse me of 'luring' someone to go crooked! FFS! i dun have to resort to that and i have never ever tot of doing tt! at least i am sane enuf to noe that love cannot be forced! sheesh... kinda disappointed with LD for saying such nonsense.
