i think there is something seriously wrong with this week... wk 45 of year 2007. it has been a black black week for me... worse week i have had in my entire life. its like all the unpleasant things 接二连三地发生! as if last wk's dreadful audit; false accusations and showdown with LD was not enuf, i had to go thru another round of emotion rollercoaster having to deal with the guilt of accusing & hurting someone i like, feeling helpless (nursing incident) and getting pissed off.

I received 2 噩耗 today.

1st - d&d cancelled. WTF! never would i tot this would happen! seriously, i dun see wats the point of us pulling away from the main co and trying to gain independence. look at the repercussions?! we r really getting nowhere lor. see la! be independent, be independent, end up even d&d is gone... v piss off u noe... tts the only thing at yr end i look forward to... hopes all dashed. !#$*^&$#!

2nd - one of my nursing kolic who is getting married come dec had her wedding called off. y? cos the blardy bastard has no more feeling for her since 2 years ago. WTF lor! pls lah... if u have no more feeling for her 2 years ago den let go lah! try wat try?! now the poor gal has distributed the wedding invites to the ENTIRE unit lor! piang... i really feel for her you noe... so poor thing... sometimes, i really wonder if there is such thing as 天长地久. i duno lor... its not only because of this incident that made me feel this way. there are LOTS of stories lor... about breakups and about heartache. and honestly, i myself being thru alot in relationship as well. thats one of the reason y i did not look forward to getting married. serious... cos i cannot commit myself into a life-long relationship. its not that i am a flirt or wat... i think i am born liddat... or like wat my frens always tell me...maybe i have not met the rite person that makes me want to settle down yet. perhaps... perhaps...

i am kinda glad the week is going to be over soon. at least i do not have to deal with workplace issue for the next 4 days cos i am on leave. that place really sux to the core! and this emotional rollercoaster is too much for me to take... really feeling v v v disturbed by all the things that had happened these 2 weeks...