my good fren lost something so precious to her lately. she was devastated in all honesty, i could not find the right word to express how she feel. perhaps because my vocab is limited or its simply due to the fact that i did not experience that kind of emotional roller coaster she went through. but somehow, i could sense that sadness... in her smiles, in her emails, in her smses, in facebook and especially so in her blog. tears couldnt help flow out from my eyes whenever i read her blogs. and i feel so guilty i couldnt do anything to help ease her pain. u noe pple always say 'thats wat frens are for'... but in this kind of circumstance, i felt super useless. i couldnt comfort her, couldnt be there for her, couldnt cheer her up. everyday i just see her putting up a brave front yet feeling so vunerable inside. i feel so much for her. J, if you are reading this blog, pls accept my apologies for not being able to do much for u. i miss ur smiles, ur cheerfulness; miss the way u suan me. be brave ok... at least be brave for those around you and be brave for whom you have lost. i'm sure she would love to see you back to your normal self.